Study life #update

Who would've thought that this semester I would attend my classes online. Literally from home. With the outbreak of the corona virus, I could see how the world is changing in any way. Lockdown. Social distancing. Work from home. Quarantine. Stay at home. 

For some people it may be a hell of a time but for some other it could mean paradise. Me? For this one introvert, Im totally seeing it as a heaven:) I really love and enjoy this whole stay at home stuff. Stay in my room 24/7 wearing socks and put my hoodie on. Embracing the cold weather of my hometown and eating my mom's breakfast menu everyday. 

What so weird about online classes is the fact that I could literally fall asleep during the lecture, zoom meeting. It would never occur in my life for once that I'd be enjoying my lecture this much, laying down on my bed during classes while reading the materials from the professor and make resume. That's pretty much what I enjoy the most about online class. I dont deny that the workload is undeniably overload hahah but I really enjoy doing it. Also with the online classes I dont have to do a presentation in front of people hehe. Im not that good in public speech but Im willing to learn even tho i have to keep aside my shyness but this moment im taking it for granted, a whole semester without a presentation nor speak in front of the class hehe.

I dont think I have done my very best but I kinda satisfied of how I could cope with the flow and the workload. This, actually me trying to appreciate my effort and work hehe:)

Anyway, Today is my last day of mid term exam, first time doing exam online haha and how was it? Well the most interesting part is the paper assignments, I have always loved the idea of writing stuff including paper haha i mean I know that's kinda depressing sometimes but it does trigger my braincells to think and force my fingers to write whatever it is that pop up in my head. I dont think that I would get a paper assignment when I do classes offline, instead it would always be get in to a class and do the exam for like 2 hours and then you go back to your dorm. Stress out and complain about hundred pages of ppt slide that you have to understand for the next day. With the online classes, the open-book method is kinda help to lessen my worries. I mean I dont have to memorize all those slides but I just need to understand the concept and the big picture. 

I spent weeks, learning and studying; slept at 3am yet I really enjoy every second of it. Alhamdulillah. Well, Im not that straight A's student. I don't study 24/7 for college stuff and wallow in unnecessary stress over a piece of paper but I have always found happiness and pleasure while learning, discovering new things, and seeking knowledge. Because I know I lack in so many things and I need to fix it or at least Im trying to.

At the moment I have 3 days worth of holiday after midterm exam and Im gonna take it as a bless and take a break from the college-related stuff. Im planning on painting, writing (hopefully I could also write stuff here for the next 3 days in a row), and reading my books *also fyi I've ordered some books haha cuz Im running out of it:) hope it arrives soon, so I could indulge myself into my comfort zone reading books in peace. 

Good luck for everyone who's doing classes online, we are in this together.

Perspective and point of view

It was a well spent evening at the ocean shore. Under the cloudly skies with no stars to stare at, I remember how you told me about your childhood. You laughed as you recalled those mischief memories about how you and your two friends messing around the neighborhood, knocking at doors then run away.

I could see perfectly how your dimples were curved.

you told me about your first time seeing a baseball match in Boston and someone from the bench above you spill her drinks on your white shirt.

You were laughing like a 5 yo kid as you recall those memories.

"Can I ask u something?" You said

"What? Yea sure."

Then you said something in french

"Oh cmon I did have french class in highschool but that doesn't mean Im that fluent." I said as I breath in the warm yet cold breeze of that evening air.

You laugh and mocked me cuz I had spent 3 years learn french in highschool yet Im still not fluent.

As the time passes by, I remember how you pointed out at the sky when a bird flew above us.

"I always wanted to be a bird." You said

"Well let me guess, you want freedom, just like that little bird having his own freedom, flying around without burden on his shoulder."

"Correct. Why you always know what Im thinking?" You smiled and moved your eyes toward the calm ocean waves.

"I have a super power, reading your mind haha. And one more thing, you want to see things from above so you could see in wider perspective. Big picture means better understanding." I exclaimed and I could totally understand what you were thinking.

"Yeah, when you see something in a bigger perspective, it'll make you realize that our judgement means nothing. Everything might be correct in our own perspective. That's why there's always 2 sides of a story. People see different things based on their own perspective." This time I could see how you effortlessly pour out your deep thoughts into a simple logic, unlike me who like to say things in tangled methaporical nonsense way haha.

"And also we will never know how they see things nor how they feel things until we walk in their shoes. walk the path they have traveled, live their sorrow, doubts, fear; feel their pain and laughter.” now you know what I mean by methaporical nonsense way, I always say things in complicated philosophical vague-meaning kind of way:) *is that even a word???

"Each and one of us has a different point of view. And that what makes us unique as an individual." Once again you succed in making a simple yet deep meaning statement. I always like listen to your story.

Things are a lil bit complicated and so are we, humans. With a little times the universe has given to us, somehow it doesn't make us learn and realize about all those beautiful little things yet we still argue over thing that has no soul.

It is true, sometimes we need to get away for a lil while to think, to contemplate, and to realize that life is simple. Beautiful. And full of meaning.

As the sun went down on the horizon, you told me how you were happy and enjoy the evening. And the idea of talking about things in my nonsense philosophical kind of way.

"You know what, I really like talking to you. I wish we could meet again some time." You said as you remembered you have flight to catch the next day in the morning to get back home across the continent.

It really was a meaningful and beautiful evening in the ocean shore. Now I have realized how precious time is and how things should be seen in a wider perspective. Upon things that I ponder, journey that I've walked in, I realize there's this one thing that should be placed in front of the line,

not to be judgemental,

For we never know what others have been through. Their pain, sorrow, tears and laughter.

Under the moonlight and the blink of the night stars I come to a point where I discover a treasure chest. I have noticed how the raging waves listen to the weather. And how the moon could never complain to the sun about its dazzled lights.

For the years to come, I wish you luck.


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P.s.

Those story above is based on my own experience with my canadian friend, who is very kind, funny, non-judgemental, and open-minded.  Im just adding a few methapor to make it worth reading:) Hope youre doing good and have fun doing kayak haha. And good luck learning ur japanese!

a few from the Camera Roll

beside all the madness, mean faces, and the traffic jam, Jakarta's just has a certain kind of feeling to it that makes you want to come back, even for just a moment-

It has been quite the busy and confusing past couple months for this one introvert. it has been a little past few weeks of doing my class online, a whole lot has changed, something is indeed never occur in my thought like ever, including how I found myself actually fell asleep few times during morning class in my very own bedroom in my house. so weird. I have been introduced to the term of quarantine, social distancing, zoom conference, online class and what soever this very year. again, so weird. but yea everything happens for a reason, this one pretty much is because of the corona outbreak:) 

It is now my second year in college and throughout my normal days at the campus (the good old days without the outbreak) I have been given so much time to enjoy myself and spend my time alone but this past few months I've managed to a lil bit resist my introverted tendencies of being exhausted by people and crowd, and instead I found myself few times going out, seeing the city lights, visiting new places, and doing things. life always has a funny way to surprise me, in a good beautiful way. the month of November alone has filled with laughter and exciting things and moments worth remembering.

Gultik

November was the month I got to finally try Gultik for the first time. for a long while I've heard about this famous jakarta street food here and there. my friends and I managed to get there after class. we delightfully enjoyed our meal and the atmosphere of the midnight breeze of Jakarta. the place itself was on the sidewalk and there were lot of other people too, enjoying their late night meal.

Plaza Indonesia, Jakarta

also November was the very first time I actually did a late night riding around Jakarta with my friends. Enjoyed the city lights and the skyscraper view along the way. it wasn't a night full of stars, it was cloudy but the atmosphere and the cold midnight-breeze of Jakarta were a perfect jar to pour out all my imaginations, dreams, and thoughts. it was like a fairy tale that bubbling above my head all the way long. I wish I brought my notes and wrote it down all my random thoughts and ideas. when it's above midnight, there always come a deep talk conversation and actually a perfect time to contemplate life.

being the night owl that I am, I practically always get the exciting feeling when plans converge and I end up doing my to-do-list, that pretty much is an achievement for me. but today I don't feel like I wanna check my to list notes and now I find myself trying to write something out of nowhere in blog after installing an app for my saturday class which probably took an hour. well I kinda consider it as a day off after days of sleepless night and tiring days.

Fireworks and new year's eve

at the start of January and the last night of December, I end up far from home in the middle of the night with my friends. New year eve 2020, was the time I found myself watching the new year's eve fireworks in the midst of Jakarta, along the street of Sudirman-Thamrin. beside the rainy night of January first, the fireworks was still amazing and had a pleasant kind of feeling of those nostalgic childhood where I always went to the city with my papa in the middle of the night just to watch the sparkling sky of fireworks in new year's eve.

Selamat Datang Monument, also known as Bundaran HI Monument

beside all the madness, mean faces, and the traffic jam, Jakarta's just has a certain kind of feeling to it that makes you want to come back, even for just a moment-- for the story, for the conversation and for the memories.