Saturday 30 November 2019

Cordelia it is


....
"Sometimes I regret it when I being open up to someone, you know?"
"Then why did you?"
"I dont know, maybe I feel like that person can be trusted or maybe deep down I want that person to be someone special whom I can trust??"
"How do you even define someone's trustworthy in the first place?"
"Well I don't know"
"Okay you dont know, that's stupid."
"Maybe I am?"
"You definitely are."
"Have you ever felt like you know a person's about to be someone special to you?"
"Like what?"
"Never mind."
"Ok you weird."
"Thanks, Ok random question, what's your fav season?"
"Winter, you?"
"Fall."
"Why?"
"I dont know, maybe cuz it has something to do with falling in love like love love. You know what I mean?"
"Hm maybe yes maybe no i dont know"
"What's love exactly, anyway?"
"Idk my mama never told me also it's a lie I think"
"Why'd you think like that?"
"Idk cuz people change, feeling fades????"
"Interesting, never thought that way."
"Then how you define about it?"
"Well one thing I know, it's gonna break you at some point."
"Which point?"
"Idk dont ask me."
"Is it like what people said as broken heart?"
"Maybe."
"Idk either."
"Anyway, can someone unlove someone?"
"Maybe yes maybe no, idk."
"Ok."
"Ok."
"But u know u can't forget someone, right?"
"I do."
"Why can't we?"
"Idk maybe cuz memories stay and people don't?"

"So anyway, how do they call you?"
"It's Cordelia. What's your name?"
"I don't have a name."


P.s. it's from Cordelia PoV anyway:) also about the other character's name, it's your guess haha

Friday 29 November 2019

A Lil Note to My Fellow 2-08


You still dream about the people lost in your memory and fabricated by your nostalgia and romantisized by your broken heart.

Time flies, people move, and wound heals.

As a human being, there's this cycle that we'll always fall back in over and over again, yea what else it could be? Hello and goodbye. meeting new friends is the new beginning and indeed there will come a time where we should say good bye. As I grow up I realize there's this thing we should good at, move on and start over, no matter how tight u hold this second, this hour, time will leave, eventually. And all u got is memories:) also time's tricky, when u suffer it feels like an eternity but when u all happy and settle it just feels like pufffff and gone, like a second. "Ok this dude is all happy, let's make it quick." -time

Hello and good bye, such a couple of word that conflict me over times, and sometimes failed me cuz Im just not good at it. Also Im that kind of person who like to torture myself by living my nostalgic memories that often.
I love bringing good old memories back, calling them and living upon it under my fragile INFP-self. Cuz there were just lot of memories that I didn't want to end. Starting my uni days with you guys was one of them.
Back then I had none, also Im socially awkward, shy, weird, some may call me ansos:) cuz Im not so good at socializing. Actually that's not completely true tho, cuz if u know me you would know that I talk a lot hehe. Also I would tell you things very randomly and pretty much nonsense stuff like how come camels end up in Saharan Desert and how Dinosaurs end up dead and not survive when a big bad meteor hit earth and how we end up call this very Earth, Earth lmao
ok thats enough. Before I go too far and annoyed u. Well I guess u already are hehe #maap
so today Im about to pay my debt cuz I owe a farewell speech also it's been a half of a semester. And oh HOW'S UTS?:)))) H3H3H3 PLS DON'T EVEN ASK!!!!!!!

Ok may the speech begin. 

Well, shall I make it formal like a proper speech???? Ok let just cut to the chase, first of all Im grateful of knowing such kind, loving, and caring creatures like you guys. I really am. We were all like a lost kid, far from home, tryna to live this thug life, but we found each other. We fixed each other. 
I never thought college days would be that hard (well it is that hard) till I met you and heard all those nonsense jokes of yours was one thing that I needed #ea #gombal #katakatamutiara.
Sharing assignment was my fav part of our days haha cuz I was that lazy of doing homework and stuff. Some of you fought We fought sometimes (q sih g y cuz q tyda pny power dan lemah wk) but somehow that what makes us, us #ea #gombal #lagi but that was funny anyway watching us having arguments and mocking each other haha let's make some more, eh? 

So here's a lil word of mine to u guys

To:
Adis: another version of my mama cuz ur words somehow reliefing lol. Also, even if we failed we still got love to give:)
Adit: ur english's superb bro. I salute u! 
Tiara: ur smart, don't let yourself think otherwise
Iyas: i like it better when u wear ur glasses hehe. U look cute
Yana: the person I shared my KAI access account with lmao dude my trip history is all Poncol-Bojonegoro also don't worry of not having a boyfriend, you'll find one, eventually lol.
Asti: the Buna of my xabiruness
Liana: I hope u to find ur other half vvvv soon cuz u look melas of not having a bf=))
Barok: PLS STOP ANNOYS THE CRAP OUTTA ME!!!!! GO AWAY!!! U pain in the ass.
Fadil: thanks bro for tutoring us for free. May u get all the things u want in life
Dimas: there's a lot of cool chicks out there, choose ur lover wisely!
Satrio: always keep that medok accent of urs lol. 
Angel: keep being an angel:) loving, caring, and accounting?????? wkwk
Raihan: u cute smol bean keep it up and reach up high:) luv u always
Debby: keep up that work hard you've been doing! May God make it all good.
Rotua: I need u to tell me on how to always getting accepted in applying events???!!!
Yuli: don't let others bring u down! Also please do send some foods to my kos:)
Alda: please wear ur sock! I'll buy u some if u dont have any:)
Saskia: thanks for booking us minilab, really appreciate it. Also thank u for being in "fast respond" mode everytime I text u asking for school notes and kisi2:)
Raples: Has anyone ever told u, u got eminem blood runs in u??? Also keep that "i dont give a sh*t" mode: ON always lmao
Tamtam: my housemate oy let's go on a coachella some time???? Or head in the clouds, maybe?
Fatin: don't let ur anxiety brings u down. U got skill and please do love ur self. Im wishing u the best!
Nisa: thank u for letting me know other side of u haha also I like it when u talk for hours without stopping like there's just green light on the street till my ears drop dead listening to ur story. Also u got a good voice bro, should apply for idol 2021.
Fira: DON'T LET UR MOOD SWING DRIVES U CRAZY. Take a stand and let it go~
Difta: my holy suhu in time management! How the hell u manage to do all those stuff and still got a 3.9 GPA???!!!! Also good luck for the election!
Yahya: isn't lettering fun???? Watch ur wallet dont let those brushpens steal ur money.
Ihsan: go write a book and sell it! U got skill in making poem.
Putu: r u @valeyellow46??? cuz u drive like crazy in ponjay corner, go make it 60° wkwk
Al: good luck in everything you do bro. May Allah make it all easy!
Pana: shout out to this most kindhearted person on earth!!! Always be that pana yang kocak and let's hang out together, some time? I like ur room cuz it's all neat and clean #hivi for putting cleanness #1 
Ria: seriously you should tutor me how to behave super calm:(((( also I would like to learn some make up skill from u :)
Bintang: thank u for adoring my works and stopping by at my blog. Should give u a medal for keeping up with my nonsense writing lol. Also u super cool cuz u play games and really good at it. The only game I played was mario bross lol
Fina: NO KIDDING WHY U SO CUTE LIKE A BABY????? also u got skill in design and dunia per-ppt an. wow u really cool. And oh one question, where's Peeta Mellark?:>
Olin: Timussss u got friends mus dont worry. We got ur back!
Rahel: I like ur straighforward-ness and the way u beat barok in an argument! Keep being u, u unique and rare. 
Amel: if u do a cooking demo please send me some wkwk thanks for being a good friend and taking care of us all. I hope u only joy and happiness 
Neta: I hope u be a policy maker and please let ind*maret open its store in ur hometown wkw I was once visiting padang and dissapointed cuz there's no ind*maret there:(
Asa: let go of anything that hold u back, don't panic cuz it just urself telling u lies. U can do anything u want.
Exsa: the most calm human being in class, i wonder how u manage to stay chill all the time. Also please share some tips on getting straight As in class:(((
Lupi: I like ur optimism in getting kizi-kizi and soal the day before exam lol. Also good luck for the election bro!

I know some of you still can't move on and the memories we had spent together sometimes still hold u back. Pengennya sih bareng-bareng terus but life must go on, isn't it? We have no choice but moving on:) cheers, relax, and let go. Everything is gonna be okay. It sounds clichè but yea welcome to reality:)
2021 GRADUATE BARENG YA! *Please do send me bouquet and chocolates*

I may not a good friend and will never be. Im sorry:( also Im wishing u only luck, bless, and happiness. Cheers!!!

MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU!

Love,
Febria Ero

Friday 1 November 2019

That dusky October Night


There's this space that i can't occupy, 
maybe I can but I just don't want to, I guess. 
I hestitant but I almost do. 
Later I remind myself to wait till the end of October.
Everything seems do not work out, 
I quit, I take a step back, 
get my self a space that I need. 
I remember not to get carried away, 
I promise I will take a stand. 
It's not too late, I presume. No it is not.
Let there be the space between you and me. 
Let the wind blow it away. 
Let the dream of that October night dance with me. 
I want to see the ocean tides from above the hill. 
I'd climb the peak of that cliff, 
seeing all the beauty of the blue ocean.
Sing me a song of melancholic rythm.
The day of november 1st has come, 
I hope you good with yourself. 
Wishing a heavy rainfall to greet me 
and washing me with joy. 
Stand by my side for I need you, 
hold my hands so tight, do not let go of me. 
I hope you ever listen to me 
or maybe just look at me in the eyes. 
I carry so much love within me, 
maybe I forgot to give some to myself. 
Fly me to the moon 
and remind me to go back home. 
Teach me how to breath on space, 
for I know I can't. 
Tell me stories about me, 
send me letters of your messy handwriting.
Draw me potrait of cities
with different point of view,
so I could see the the truth beneath.
That's my wish.




Desclaimer: the idea of writing this kinda romance poem is just out of nowhere haha anyway Im wishing u a joyful November, may ur day always full of love and accompanied by ur loved ones:) cheers!

Tuesday 8 October 2019

October Rain


Making a cup of hot matcha
Is how I celebrate
it is the first time of october rain
The smell of wet soil washed by the rain
Wake up wake up
September had ended
I tell myself
The clock's ticking
The ship's sailing
The universe's expanding
For none would remind me of the grande of the universe
For I always know it's true
The lightning is striking upon the dark sky
It doesn't matter
How the dark long-nights scare me the most
For I always carry a lantern, just in case
Where's my coat?
I wanna play outside
Dancing with the cold october air
Soaking up in the rain
Sinking in my wet oversize coat
I wanna see the night sky without the stars
Is it like a life without purpose?

Monday 30 September 2019

Back to Campus, Day 1


New semester has finally arrived! Today is my first day doing my job, again:) as a student after such a long long semester break. Yes 2 months of holiday. And I think my brain is yet ready to fully digest today's lecture as well as my hands to write down stuff that the professor said. But somehow Im happy, I survived yall, ALHAMDULILLAH! Im so grateful for everything, all the work that I had done, tears, laughter, and everything in between. It never was easy but I enjoyed every bit of it. And again life must go on, it always is. What will come is always better than what has gone by. I do appreciate every little things that happen to me. I've always been so bad at good byes, haha or maybe Im used to it:)) as I grow up I understand that life will always force us to keep going and moving on. Time flies and so are we, we will always meet new people and visit new places. but we can't deny the fact that we will also be parted with that old friends and that places we visited in order to meet the new ones to widen our circle and to visit some other places or even countries to pursue our dreams. Parted does not mean forever it just for a while, sometimes we need that space so we can tell that every little thing matters.
So um about my day 1 back to campus story, it was good and I met new friends as well as new classmates:) just like the sun, there's always sunset and sunrise. Life will always full of hello and goodbye. Im grateful for today. I was a lil bit nervous about the idea of getting a new classmates haha but I was also excited haha. Btw now Im in semester 3. Alhamdulillah.

Thursday 5 September 2019

Cycling around with a half dozen of kids:)


Today I did my little-workout routine by cycling around and it was'nt in the morning but around 4.30 pm. So in case u re wondering what I do during this two-months of holiday, yep #cycling is one of my new routine. This past few weeks I've been trying so hard to fix my habits, cause u know holiday makes me lazy as h€€£:( eat-sleep repeat hehe:( but I swear to God it wasn't all that bad:( cuz I also participated in some events in the neighborhood (probably I should make a post about this too, so I can claim that I am not a hardcore ansos HAHAHAHA #JK bc Im that shy, quiet, awkward, and weird xD wkwkw also my mama would go mad if I don't socialize with the society:))) so yea Im trying to make some contributions to the society hehe. Ok sure Im gonna write my experience in getting to know "the society" and what kind of events I participated during this holiday in the next post cuz why not????? Wkwkw

Ok back to the story, I was cycling around and I wasn't alone like usual cuz today I got some new companions haha. So, on my way about 700 meters cycling from my home I saw a half dozen kids who were playing on their bike and just talking to each other and indeed they were all look so happy and innocent. omggg I miss my childhood!! being a kid and chill:")
As I pull my bike and get close to them, they noticed me and shouting at me "MBA EROOO!!!" 100x XD 
and I was like *what's happening??!!* "haloo hehe" *put my nicest face on*. 
They asked me where Im going, and I told them Im about to sepedaan.
And then they were all following me HAHAHA. In case ure asking they re my neighboors


Usually it just took me 30 minutes ride to finish the route but today it took more than an hour cuz I gotta adjust my speed with the kids. We cycled together, they talked, laugh, and argued over silly things xD well mostly I just listened and laugh over their jokes. I feel like I wanna take as many pics but didn't take any cus I didn't bring my phone T_T and it happened very often, when Im not bringing my phone, the universe always offers me something beautiful like today. Beautiful sky, view, and a half dozen of pure human were following me and cheering me up huhuhu I can not. My heart just couldnt handle such pure and beautiful soul. I love kidzzz:((((

And oh they were Jojo, Yoga, Faro, Gilang, Bayu, and Lana. Actually I didn't know all of their name at the beginning but I tried to remember each and one of them cuz they are all my brother's friends????? I got all their name but there's this kid that i don't know his name, help! Then I asked, it turned out he's Bayu, yaAllah ternyata cm tetangga belakang rumah hahaha sorry:( they are all 7 or 8 yo kiddos i think. Masi polos dan tidak berdosa:(

We ride our bike and in the middle of the road, we saw a kid struggling to fix his bike, it was broken, Its chain was off and locked on the iron ring of the tire or whatsoever I dont know how to call it xD. Then we stopped and helped that kid to fix his bike. I mean the kids helped that kid *im excluded* bc I was just watched and learned:))) As they fixed the bike together the kids chatted with that kid like they had known each other #mashaAllah.
At first they were not sure whether they can make it because it was kinda difficult to pull the chain out of the iron ring. It was stuck. But in the end they did it. And they were all shouting "ALHAMDULILLAH" and smiled. Kids are kind hearted and humble and pure and cute huhu my heart♡

-This is the most interesting part- as the bike got fixed, the kid that we helped just cycled his bike and ran without say a thank:))) well maybe he was shy hehe like me:) so the kids were like exchanging look *angry look*why didn't he say thanks?????* and they were just lauging HAHAHAHA like *what just happened*
"It's okay guys if he doesn't thank us for what we did. As long as we did it sincerely. Also it was just one tiny favor:)" Gilang said. And I was like ????????? SPEECHLESS!!!!
"Yeah ure right"
"Let's go and just forget it:)"

Then we continue our route and we parted and went home. Alhamdulillah what a lovely evening. Got so much thing to learn and that's my story for today:)

Monday 15 July 2019

hi there! it's me, again with my consistence of inconsistent post hehe, hope you don't mind:) and what time is it by the way??? yep 2 am in the morning and I can't sleep, WHY???!! how can I suppose to get well night-sleep while I already got enough sleep in the noon??? you know what I mean? yeah finals' over and it's holiday and indeed my life-routine cycle is changing. sleep at noon and awake all nights. and here I am writing idk-what-im-gonna-write while eating indomie. also Im re-reading pride and prejudice, God I miss fictions already haha you know, it's been a while since I read any unrelated-lecture books cuz i was busy doing my job as a student and didn't get any chance to buy some time to read non non-fiction books. alhamdulillah now Im having all day all night just to read any books that I want.
and tomorrow I mean today (since today is monday already) Im getting farewell party with my classmates cuz next semester we're not gonna be in the same class anymore:( and what's that mean? hehe time to move on and start over. but there's still chance to be in the same class with some of them. gonna miss u guys! 


Tuesday 4 June 2019

Ramadan day 30

Last day of this year Ramadan. I feelsboth sad and happy, sad of getting apart with the holy month of Ramadan. Happy because I can spend times with my parents, my family, reunited with old friends and take some rest from the heavy load of college stuff (this one is not so true:") still have assignments and gonna face finals really soon) make dua for me, please?
In Saudi, Europe, and UK today's eid already. But in indonesia, australia, new zealand, malaysia, singapore and other asean countries  will celebrate eid on wednesday, june 5th 2019, which mean tomorrow. Alhamdulillah. Allah hu Akbar allahuakbar allahuakbar laa illa haillallahu allahu akbar allahu akbar walillahilham. 
And now im helping my mum preparing all the snacks and nastar and kastangle and putrisalju. Alhamdulillah. Also there's an eid celebration parade right in front of my house (di depan rumah jalan raya soalnya wkwk) all people looks so happy praising Allah and the kids all roaming around the town echoing takbeer and beating the bedug (drum). MashaAllah what a vibe♥
I am forever grateful for all the bless Allah has sent to me. Alhamdulillahirabbil 'alamiin. In this day 30 of Ramadan this year, I pray may Allah give us all more ramadans in the years ahead.
O Allah please give us the chance to meet ramadan next year. Aamiin.

Eid mubarak everyone! May u don't spoil kuah opor on your dress hehe xD cheers! Love u always.
XX

Saturday 25 May 2019

ramadan day 20: overcoming the unwanted distraction

hi there, assalamualaykum! Iam back hehe. sorry it's been too long since my last post here. now we are entering the last 10 days of Ramadan, and let's do our best in ibadah (worship) to meet laylatul qadr. aamiin.
this pas few days of ramadan I had been busy doing my assignments and projects, also  I got a lot of quizzes this week. so yepp mostly I spent my times studying. alhamdulillah. and ohhh only 4 more classes left before I go home. microeconomics and introduction of state finance in monday, cost accounting due tuesday, and accounting in wednesday. 
this year ramadan is different than ever anyway, but I am grateful. everything has changed since day one I left high school, the way I see things, the way I set my priorities, the way I make choices, the way I manage to improve myself, etc etc. it never was easy, but I have friends and families who always encourage and support me. even it was hard, because of them I survived. And now I am in the middle of somewhere, learn and grow up. in the hope of giving something good to the world. 
day 20 of ramadan, so today I supposed to get a quiz but it was canceled. actually kinda disappointed cuz I had it all well prepared hehe, but it's ok.
These past 3 days I've got some distractions which annoyed me the most, not to mention it also doesn't worth my time. at all. it just makes pain in the a$$. but Im overcoming it. studying's also my attempt to distract myself from this kind of unwanted-interruption hehe. also during this last 10 days of ramadan I want to focus on Allah, just Allah, and only Allah. no one else but Allah. 

Tuesday 7 May 2019

ramadan day 1

Ramadan kareen, everyone!!!
so here iam posting a latepost of ramadan day 1. actually I did write the article yesterday but my wi-fi was kinda broke so I didn't have internet connection to post it here. so sorry! so imma just pretend like today is day one of ramadan 2019 haha JK. 
so yesterday (hate it when I have to change the article into past tenses lol) was my first day of away-from-home Ramadan T_T considering now I live hundreds miles away from them, yeah you know, college. so what's so cool about not-home Ramadan? okay, NOTHING's cool. really.

so in this very beginning of Ramadan I can't do the shawm (fasting) cuz u know, *sigh* period. To my dearest sisters who are in period during this first week of Ramadan, I know it sucks:( period is the worst thing that can happen during this holy month. having to stay at home while your family and friends rush to the masjid for taraweeh and perform obligatory prayers, not being able to recite Quran, seeing people spending time with Quran and do tadarus, etc etc but you re just sitting there and feeling left behind and useless. astaghfirullah. as you guys know there are still so many ibadahs that we can do during our period. don't let period prevent us from performing our best during this Ramadan. everything that is destined by Allah is for the best, to complain is never a good trait of a muslim. don't let something as small as period get in between you and His blessing. always be grateful. alhamdulilllah.  alhamdulillah for everything.

Okay let's move on from "girls problem (read: period)" and talk about something bigger like ramadan vibes. so it was kinda strange, I mean something is definitely different here. Idk if it's just me or okay idk what to say. I do not feel any RAMADAN VIBES here. when I was home and in Ramadan, the atmosphere of Ramadan was super thick but here, I don't feel nor see it here at all. plus I also just do my routine like usual, campus-boarding house-study-eat-sleep and repeat, nothin special. Ramadan at home would be way more exciting, when I was home in Ramadan I went to the mosque teaching Quran to the kids every evening after ashr prayer and ate iftar together, being with my family, friends, and tonss of good foods of korzzz! alhamdulillah
Ramadan last year, was a year of reflection and learning for me, I learned a lot of things. I dealt with something I couldn't imagine I would pass but eventually I did, with the help and bless of Allah. alhamdulillah. it was a lit bit overwhelming to be honest, but Iam grateful for what has happened to me, it's all for my own good, and Allah is the best of planner. Im not gonna explain what kind of thing it was tho (if u know me, you'd understand;)) everything has changed since then and it changes in a good way alhamdulillah. I grow maturer, I understand (and still on my way understanding) a lot of thing like study of life, I read more books, I can improve myself to control my feeling and emotion (as you guys know im an infp haha cough*i can't control feelings*cough), I also manage to reconsider my goals haha (thanks to my sidekick for asking me to think through about this one, Im working on it hehe) Bismillah. May Allah guide me.
Im thinking a lot of thing lately (lol I always think) but this time is like double think, about a lot of thing, my missions, my goals (both dunya and akhirah;)) and about how I should manage my time better and not to procrastine hehe this is one of the hardest  indeed.
so here's a video about the danger of procrastination from ust. Nouman Ali Khan who is also my one of favorite mentors. Im sharing this also to remind myself;)



so in this Ramadan, I think it is a good start to improve ourselves. let's make and do our best in this year's Ramadan.

May peace and bless be upon you <3

I'd like to know ur story of today's Ramadan, so share ur thought in the comment section below, maybe? Hehe

P.S. Im thinking of blogging every single day in Ramadan. something like Ramadan Reflection or Ramadan Story and yea basically any post related to improve ourselves during Ramadan and indeed also as a reminder to myself. while trying to make my writings up here, I can learn a thing or two as well. make dua please?:)

Friday 12 April 2019


"what time is it?"
I can't sleep then I eat
it is 2 in the morning, "why can't I sleep?"
I take my book then I read
every page is a treat,
it gives me a lead
and also spirit
savior when the crisis hits
a weakness that I can't resist
from west hemisphere to the East
I hold it tight
for it gives me light
show me both left and right
also dark and bright
I neglect the late night
and maybe it is a pride

Monday 25 February 2019

Classics;

as the saying goes
all roads lead to Rome
but Rome is also where the visit to Greece begins
it is from Rome that the minds longs to travel
away to that outpost of cultural order in the midst of wild nature
high on a mountainside in a rugged and lonely part of Arcadia
speculating and pondering: which is the greatest show on Earth?
(classics; chapter 8)



maybe; o maybe I was a Roman
or maybe I was not
I looked east and east
there lied my origin
as the sun went down in the west
I ran throughout the ancient world
collecting words and poems
along with its ancient myth
beneath the cloudless bluish-sky
it became a place where my mind could wander

from the life of Roman Empire 
till the rise of Byzantine
through the centuries
only one I could never leave
Greece it is

Monday 11 February 2019

comeback-post greeting

today is brand new
not perfect but new
look around and take it in
let it mean something to you
for there will always voices
that linger from yesterday
but you did not have to listen to them
you have grown, you have changed
wrapped in endless,boundless grace, 
today
is still brand new
look around and take it in,
let it mean something to you (Morgan Harper Nichols)


This is gonna be the first post of 2019 and how are you guys? so maybe I'll just write anything I can think of right now haha. and I hope you re all just doing well. it has been months since I posted something here. well yeah I was kinda on my hiatus mode haha. I was so busy #halah with my typical campus-life routine and I lacked of track in doing time-management. so yeah I was mostly just  going to campus (basically like typical college student lol), study, read, sleep, eat, and repeat. nothing special. and I started to recall my long-lost forgotten french skill plus my friend and I are planning to do some collabs in business. hope I can manage to do all of this endless list. inshaAllah. May Allah make it all easy. and im planning on adding more list on my not-so new year resolution???? I am that kind of person who like to write things down, making list, and set goals haha alhamdulillah. in this new semester I hope I can do better, inshaAllah, well Im workin on it. wish me luck:)
Today was the first day of new semester, and it was good to see my friends after such a full 3-weeks of holiday. and today people brought their local foods and it taste good! mashaAllah.
and oh can't believe it's February already. where time GOES??!! and how much time I've wasted???? astaghfirullah May Allah save and guide me. speaking of TIME and how fast it goes, I remember last year when I was struggling a lot pursue something I wanted the most (that time) haha desclaimer: Im that idealistic. but now I know, time also can be that surprising (and depressing sometime???) though i am not where I thought I'd be, Im pretty sure it will lead me toward something beautiful. inshaAllah.
a lot had happened last year and I am grateful upon everything; opportunity, lesson, friends, family, basically anything that has happened to me. alhamdulillah.