August of rain summer

"some days in late August at home does feel like this, the air thin and eager like this, with something in it sad and nostalgic and familiar..." -William Faulkner, The Sound and the Fury

a season of shooting star, meteor showers, the night when I waited after such a long long summer. it was late august! the light in the trees, golden hours, long way home, wild flowers between the green grass on the meadow. do you remember the night when I asked you to see the moon eclipse? we both sat down on the deck by the bay, cold night as the air rushed in from the south, bringing some good memories on the day we met. a little town. white sand beaches. calm ocean waves. wrecked ships on the bay that we could see from above the bridge. kids playing soccer on the field down under the bridge. 

when I see the moon, I could clearly wrapped the days I spent with you, french fries, coffee after the sunset, hot tea, and jellyfish.

august of another summer, the smell of iced matcha in the midst of hot sunny day on a Saturday afternoon. 

I think it's nice that we shared the same sky. at times I look up at the sky and I know that we both can see the moon, so even though we are not actually in the same place and we are not actually together, we kinda are, in a way, you know?

"it's raining outside, you are not here. even the clouds couldn't handle your absence."

cloudy evening and handwritten letter. she loves the sky, she loves how it turns into oranges, pink, and even a mixture of red. her heart becomes light as she stares at the beauty of the sky. she loves taking photos of the moon and sunsets as she believes that just like this, endings can be beautiful too. the sky, calm waves at the beach, and sunsets are her healing and it gives her peace of mind. 

august was something else and despite all the odds, the moon would always be there when you look up above the sky.

August 10th 1999, sunset at the beach

Thursday evening, sunny days, and the heart is warmer than ever

I was hoping it would be easy like a Sunday morning,

clock's ticking in rush telling us that our time's limited,

only few hours left before the war

riding through the south, "wanna go see the sunset?" you asked

the wind was cold but you were as warm as the morning sunshine in the summer

all along the way I held you tight, knowing that the evening would fade

you took me to the beach

somewhere we've never been to,

it wasn't really our thing visiting random places but that evening was special

watching the sun sets by the beach

the sky was pretty in color, pinkish, and clear blue like it was mirroring the sea

"lets go see the sunset, but promise that you wont cry" you said

you told me not to be sad (hundred times as I can count)

you told me to always be happy

you, me, and the sea

we sat on a rocky side by the beach,

you light your cigarette as we fooling around and complaining how time flies way too fast

hoping that August would also fly like a blink of an eye, 

you knew how I could sit here all day just to stare at the beach

and with you by my side, I could feel the calm inside me

you let me all sat there quietly and stared at the horizon up above the sea

daydreaming, we both know it all too well that's the only thing Im good at

I like it when you let me do my weird things in peace, do nothing and just stare at the moon and the pinkish sky up above,

I could feel the way you stare at me every once in a while as I breath the fresh salty air

you insisted to take picture of me but I said no because I was shy,

I just wanted to spend the evening with you

behind us was a green meadow, hills, and not so far away from the runaway

"there's no flight here in the evening, the last one's usually at 4pm" you said as I asked you why there's no aircraft in sight

I closed my eyes as the wind blew my black scarf and pulled some moist salty air and dusty white sands into my face

birds chirping, singing their happy song like it was telling us that the sun will set

bringing the promise of the dawn in the next morning

that evening just felt so calm and I feel safe being with you

To all sunshine, rainbows, lilies and happy days that will come after this

I hope you always win in life 

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