How if anything doesn't exist

I asked my self how does the universe start to exist and what the first of all event was. How about the other  far far away universe? Do we have allies out there? Once I realized that time is just one dimension of many. My understanding of time is that one thing happens after another. Physics tells that time and cause are just purely concept of our minds. We happen to live in a universe with physical law that allow conciousness to exist and travel along the dimensional "line". We are just seing one moment after the other. In fact, the history of our universe is just exist, it goes infinitely into the future and past. There would no first or last, it is actually like written in a book that has never be written. We are reading it but how we read it or where we start it  depend on who is reading it. There laid many mystery tales among the sky and the star that seem have no ending. 

And so, the real question is not why anything exists. But how if anything doesn't exist.

Clearly we are all just a stardust, we almost nothing but we made from a star stuff.

P.s. sometimes we gotta grateful just because we are a human-being. Isn't it nice to be a human?

A letter

Dear Hermione

When you read this letter, I hope you won't hex or crucio me. Umm i can't say much, but for merlin's sake i think you'd better know one thing before  we at least leave hogwarts after the war and find our own way.

I love you, granger.

Although i've broke your feelin for many times due to my dumb assness to call u a mudblood and any else worse thing. I love you, granger. I never admit it to anyone else even my self, i had been denying it for years. I was wondering about my feeling these years about you honestly. I kept asking my self do I really love you or I just randomly think about you. Then I tell my mother about it, eventually. Of course she didn't approve but all she want is me to be happy, so my mother told me to write you a letter just in case to say sorry after all i've done. I hope you would accept my appologize though i know you wouldn't that easy.

Now, you dont need to be worry about me, im okay if i have none who would stand beside me. We might could be a friend (did i just propose you to be my friend? Damn, but apparently yes. Would u granger?) Well okay, never mind, i just out of my line. Besides, i know you already have weasel and saint potter. You deserve them, they're all good meanwhile me, i just a villain and brainless. Anyway i hope best for u and weasel.

Just hoping that one day i could be as lucky as weasel... to find someone who will love me no matter who I am. Yet Im afraid of losing but i know im a coward  and i deserve nothing. After what my family and I have done in the war, i  realize i even don't deserve to live. To be honest granger, i never ever want to stay in the dark side but i just had no choice. My father kept forcing me to be the dumb dark lord's servant. Once I was thinking to defect into your side but apparently im a coward, i had no bravery in my hell blood. I promise to my self that if one day i have kids i'll raise them in peace and love so that there wouldn't any other savage malfoy who insult muggle born witch. And it would be nice if you're the mother of my kids. Oh what the  hell granger, did i just say about future? 

I know granger, this letter would mean nothing for you. 

Stay well, granger. Im praying to salazar for your best. Oh...um, one more thing -im happy about you and weasel. And I do really mean it. 

Sincerely yours,

Draco

Pointless Post

I read some dramione fanfics these days and i think im obsessed. its been one of my fav otp #perksofbeingmultifandom. I actually have lot of things to do about my school stuff, well yea national exam ahead, its less than a week but i still treat my self like exam wouldn't come lmao. I was reading my biology literature when suddenly sleepyness hit my brain hardly. I laid on my bed then, for my sleepy's sake. But apparently my brain couldn't sleep. Bcs u know, the draco malfoy keep spinning on my head lollll. I'v often lost some of my ideas to write due to my inadequate ability to wrap neatly a story or writing, so i just desperately let them running out my brain without write them down. Suddenly i felt like someone hit me on the face with dramione ideas, so here we go. Im gonna write them down.  Though, it wasn't an epic one fanfic but it would be my very first fanfiction i ever made. Gonna slay fanfic world lmao. Well, not really. Im sorry if my writing wasn't as good as JK Rowling but i do hope you guys will enjoy it. Check them out on my next post!