hi there, assalamualaykum! Iam back hehe. sorry it's been too long since my last post here. now we are entering the last 10 days of Ramadan, and let's do our best in ibadah (worship) to meet laylatul qadr. aamiin.
this pas few days of ramadan I had been busy doing my assignments and projects, also I got a lot of quizzes this week. so yepp mostly I spent my times studying. alhamdulillah. and ohhh only 4 more classes left before I go home. microeconomics and introduction of state finance in monday, cost accounting due tuesday, and accounting in wednesday.
this year ramadan is different than ever anyway, but I am grateful. everything has changed since day one I left high school, the way I see things, the way I set my priorities, the way I make choices, the way I manage to improve myself, etc etc. it never was easy, but I have friends and families who always encourage and support me. even it was hard, because of them I survived. And now I am in the middle of somewhere, learn and grow up. in the hope of giving something good to the world.
day 20 of ramadan, so today I supposed to get a quiz but it was canceled. actually kinda disappointed cuz I had it all well prepared hehe, but it's ok.
These past 3 days I've got some distractions which annoyed me the most, not to mention it also doesn't worth my time. at all. it just makes pain in the a$$. but Im overcoming it. studying's also my attempt to distract myself from this kind of unwanted-interruption hehe. also during this last 10 days of ramadan I want to focus on Allah, just Allah, and only Allah. no one else but Allah.
so here iam posting a latepost of ramadan day 1. actually I did write the article yesterday but my wi-fi was kinda broke so I didn't have internet connection to post it here. so sorry! so imma just pretend like today is day one of ramadan 2019 haha JK.
so yesterday (hate it when I have to change the article into past tenses lol) was my first day of away-from-home Ramadan T_T considering now I live hundreds miles away from them, yeah you know, college. so what's so cool about not-home Ramadan? okay, NOTHING's cool. really.
so in this very beginning of Ramadan I can't do the shawm (fasting) cuz u know, *sigh* period. To my dearest sisters who are in period during this first week of Ramadan, I know it sucks:( period is the worst thing that can happen during this holy month. having to stay at home while your family and friends rush to the masjid for taraweeh and perform obligatory prayers, not being able to recite Quran, seeing people spending time with Quran and do tadarus, etc etc but you re just sitting there and feeling left behind and useless. astaghfirullah. as you guys know there are still so many ibadahs that we can do during our period. don't let period prevent us from performing our best during this Ramadan. everything that is destined by Allah is for the best, to complain is never a good trait of a muslim. don't let something as small as period get in between you and His blessing. always be grateful. alhamdulilllah. alhamdulillah for everything.
Okay let's move on from "girls problem (read: period)" and talk about something bigger like ramadan vibes. so it was kinda strange, I mean something is definitely different here. Idk if it's just me or okay idk what to say. I do not feel any RAMADAN VIBES here. when I was home and in Ramadan, the atmosphere of Ramadan was super thick but here, I don't feel nor see it here at all. plus I also just do my routine like usual, campus-boarding house-study-eat-sleep and repeat, nothin special. Ramadan at home would be way more exciting, when I was home in Ramadan I went to the mosque teaching Quran to the kids every evening after ashr prayer and ate iftar together, being with my family, friends, and tonss of good foods of korzzz! alhamdulillah
Ramadan last year, was a year of reflection and learning for me, I learned a lot of things. I dealt with something I couldn't imagine I would pass but eventually I did, with the help and bless of Allah. alhamdulillah. it was a lit bit overwhelming to be honest, but Iam grateful for what has happened to me, it's all for my own good, and Allah is the best of planner. Im not gonna explain what kind of thing it was tho (if u know me, you'd understand;)) everything has changed since then and it changes in a good way alhamdulillah. I grow maturer, I understand (and still on my way understanding) a lot of thing like study of life, I read more books, I can improve myself to control my feeling and emotion (as you guys know im an infp haha cough*i can't control feelings*cough), I also manage to reconsider my goals haha (thanks to my sidekick for asking me to think through about this one, Im working on it hehe) Bismillah. May Allah guide me.
Im thinking a lot of thing lately (lol I always think) but this time is like double think, about a lot of thing, my missions, my goals (both dunya and akhirah;)) and about how I should manage my time better and not to procrastine hehe this is one of the hardest indeed.
so here's a video about the danger of procrastination from ust. Nouman Ali Khan who is also my one of favorite mentors. Im sharing this also to remind myself;)
so in this Ramadan, I think it is a good start to improve ourselves. let's make and do our best in this year's Ramadan.
May peace and bless be upon you <3
I'd like to know ur story of today's Ramadan, so share ur thought in the comment section below, maybe? Hehe P.S. Im thinking of blogging every single day in Ramadan. something like Ramadan Reflection or Ramadan Story and yea basically any post related to improve ourselves during Ramadan and indeed also as a reminder to myself. while trying to make my writings up here, I can learn a thing or two as well. make dua please?:)
