dipping my feet into cool water by the bay under the bridge

sunsets, night rides, shorelines, cute spiders, jelly fish, icy drinks on a cold night, dipping your feet into cool water by the bay under the bridge, tight hugs with the loved ones, kindness of strangers, eating seafood on a random night, thoughtful gifts out of the blue, that one friend who always laugh on your bad days, sincere smiles, favorite perfume that smells freshly good, movie night at the cinema, picnic by the beach, unplanned trips in the evening, lunar eclipse.

all along the east, I don't even know nor did i even imagine things would go this way. a year ago everything was different and now that i look back, i realize that a year even few months can do a lot to a person. life's been good umm to be honest more like bittersweet i guess but I might consider it as "good" hehe. not that I like being in pain nor having some troubles in life but im trying to swallow the bitter pills one by one and enjoy every bits of it. hopefully. life's been a lil bit complicated but im sure letting things go might be the best option I have. as I get older and realize that lots of things aint gonna work the way we want it to be, now Im becoming more realistic and trying to accept whatever it is that life has brought to me. for any situation i promise I will stand on my own feet and face my reality tapi sambil nangis dikit hehe I dont know how much tears left in me but sure is, it wont get dry just because I cried every single day haha jk. talking about life, I believe things happen for a reason and for whatever the reason is I now that someday I will be grateful for the things that happened. I might get sad and cry a little but that doesn't mean that Im being weak, maybe im just embracing myself for being vulnerable and for being honest with myself, eventhough I know it wont be easy at all to deal with "things" but somehow I know I will manage. things will just pass me by as time leaving me behind and the sun will rise and bring more joy after such a long and tiring day. Im not trying to force things and just gonna let things happen the way the universe want it to be. im gonna get along with the ride and enjoy every moment that greet me along the way. 

being in the midst of a loud world sometimes drains me out and that I wanna disappear for a while. taking a breath and enjoy the ticking of every second that passes me by. hiding myself from the crowd, and taking some time alone on my favorite spot by the bay just to let the cold wind blow upon my face as I close both of my eyes. life's been a bit rough lately but it's okay, it'll pass and I know things will get better soon no matter how painful it is.